6-29-10

so its been almost 2 years since i last used this blog and a lot of things have changed. I now realize what you can do with blogs like these. you can express your emotions, problems, events and the list goes on. its something you can let out to whatever you want to say. well currently im in a situation where theres a fork in the middle of the road and im stuck between two paths. One path will lead me to pursue the one i love despite her lost in interest in me or i can take the other path which will be to leave everything as is and stay good friends with her. im so lost. i dont know what to do. as much as i love this one girl i feel as though were slowly falling apart. before her 1 month departure we had done things a normal couple would do: kiss, makeout, see each other whenever possible. but we werent official. it just kinda grew step after step and now that shes gone. every moment that were separated is making her lose interest in me. and for the second time in my life, my heart has shattered. After meeting this wonderful girl, i had thought wow is she really the one ive been looking for? i couldnt believe it. we had so many things in common. we were able to openly talk about whatever we wanted to and most of all we both had a passion for music. finally someone i could talk to about almost everything, now i realize that her focus wasnt me. her will to stay strong with the one she loves isnt there. i understand that her way of this so called "love" isnt comparable to the way i love her. the only thing i can hope for now is that by the time she comes back. things will start to rekindle and i will let this fire grow to the way it was before. if all else fails, i wouldnt know what to do. wanting to be more than just friends is hard when your partner doesnt feel the same way. if only there was a way to be with her every second of my life. if only there was a way so that things would go the way you wanted it to. just if only there was a way with everything life would be perfect but, it isnt. the most commonly used phrase " there are plenty of fish in the sea" doesnt apply when every fish in the sea are different from one another. there will only be that one unique person with their own traits and no one else in the world will be the same as her. Tiffany Kim. why would you do this to me? what is it thats causing you to drift away from me? you are a special part of my life but for better or for worse ill always be here for you. no matter what. your oppa will always be there for you. how amazing would it be if we ended up being high school sweet hearts? life would be too good. at this very moment. i dont know what to do with you. you dragged me into the hole and now i have no way of getting out.

Reunion

well today my great grandfather
came back from korea and its been probably about 8 years already
time sure really goes by fast
but i also received some money too:]
so im pretty happy right now
but honestly starfruit
watz the point of writing these blogs
im not even a expressive person
so many sometips on wat u write about or something
cuz for me writing things out is just as hard as working out algebra 2 equaations.....
school is getting gayer(if thats even a word) everyday
with just more and more loads of hw and including marching band practice
my life is getting deprived by the second

Today 9/22

well today was a okay day for me
funny stuff happened today
but i don't feel like explaining it cause I HATE BLOGGING
b/c i have no talent in expressing myself towards others
actually no talent in literature what so ever
but last week was something
my b-day on the 18th and the party
sorry i didn't invite some people xSxTxAxRxFxRxUxIxTx :P
but i was limited but i still don't mind the belated gifts if your for it
i think lately I've been having problems with some people but slowly they're getting resolved
and I've been thinking about getting into a relationship
but i got nobody at the moment
it sure would be nice:|
O and happy now that im blogging and u know who you are

I DONT KNOW i lost a bet

well im once again back on this horrid website.....
but its cuz i lost a bet to a starfruit>:P
well since i didnt do yesterdays im doing yesterdays today
ok so sunday
was pretty crappy
i had to go watch a soccer game for sister and
i had 50 tons of hw to finish up
currently at this time yesterday i think i was slacking off with my hw and getting sidetracked
ok now for today

Random

im making a blog at the expense of this other person
that i promised to make first thing in the morning butt i know im probably going to
be too tired or lazy to do it
so im just gonna make one now..... :/
well today was a pretty boring day except for bowling all night
so many ppl...... :X
things went pretty well too
summer school for me starts again on monday...yay -_-
but for the next two weeks
its gonna make up all the boredness in my life
cuz EUNICE is comin back hahaha
and i promised her to give her pickachu slippers
i wish she could stay longer....

What a Day

HAHA i was goin through my friends album from a past summer retreat

it was the best except for some parts so thought id post up those bad parts just for laughs:D

not tooo much............

good times SSCC....

Blog for July 6

today couldnt get any better..........
how lucky was i to have a fly in addition to my meal in it >:
and i was eating 감 자 탕
and for some reason im feeling neglected by ppl

*things i cant wait for
-eunice coming down to VA in 4 more days!!!
-celebrating her early b-day party
-trip to Korea & OC
-until im done blogging........

P.S. Eunice why AM I blogging?